Time is fleeting. Always. We look forward to vacations and holidays and they are gone before we can take the time to really experience them. Even as I strive to stay present and live fully in the now, I can feel the future steadily seeping in, threatening to rob me of the moment as we make our preparations for times yet to come. Victoria is not even a junior in high school but we have completed our first trip to visit possible college choices. Yes we had fun. Lots of fun. While we were there to access decisions for the future, I did my best to stay focused in the present. My moments of quiet communion watching schooners sail silently past my lounge chair in Newport quickly dissipated as we joined the multitudes of people scurrying about Time Square on the way to a Broadway show. Each experience holding its own unique gifts and memories made the others that much more vibrant and alive.
Life is such a paradox. There is always the tension of living on the edge. Chaos and order. Black and white. Night and day. You must have one to have the other. Present and future. They are so intimately interwoven yet each owning its own place in time. Where will we spend our moments, our days? It is always our choice, however difficult the ultimate unraveling may be.