Once I wanted to be Auntie Mame, eccentric, independent and free. I wanted to travel the world and collect adventures like a child collecting sea shells at the shore. I wanted to know only the most wonderfully interesting of people in all walks of life. I wanted to sit in the salons of Paris with the likes of George Sand and Chopin, sipping champagne while listening to sonnets put to melody. I wanted to roam the cafés of the art world as fluidly as a pastel chalk of Toulouse-Lautrec meandering down cobblestones and brothels. I wanted to befriend the neighborhood fish monger and drink wine with the proprietor as we sweep the floors and wipe the tables. I wanted to argue about politics, philosophy and religion with Emerson, Thoreau and Madame Blavatsky. Once I wanted to be Auntie Mame, taking my nephews and nieces to far and exotic ports, opening their minds and planting seeds of question and wonder.
Now I am a mother of my own children, charged with young minds eager and thirsty for adventures of all sorts. Dangers abound at every turn of a corner, ready to gobble up my children like a monster in the night. Once I wanted to be Auntie Mame, but now I know the indescribable joy of living intimately with children of my own. Children whose sweet souls shine through their eyes and grab my heart with a delight that takes my breath away. Children whose laughter and song make me as giddy as a young girl in love. Yes, I have given my heart away to be trampled and bruised but it is worth every second of anguish when I hear their voices as they bang through the back door. " Hi Mom! I'm home!" Yes, I am home.
Ron Stewart Portraiture
Those are a lot of pictures of baby me!! =) They are very cute!!
Look, I am introducing you to a new aspect of your blog!! I hope that you can see this!!
I love you and wish I was home to spend Mothers Day with you!! But I will see you on Friday! I CANT wait!!
LOVE,
Your first little baby!!
Posted by: Zaie | May 11, 2008 at 09:50 AM
Hi mommy!
third little baby here! :]
(you know, the one you like the mostest)
i just wanted to let you know how fabulous your writing is, i never realized how well you write until now!!
I LOVE THIS BLOG! you can still do all of that you know!!
love you and happy mothers day!
Posted by: Tori | May 11, 2008 at 11:05 AM
what a beautiful post kathy. I have had quite a morning reading your thoughts. I can share so many of them. My oldest is a junior for another couple of weeks and we are already searching for colleeges. I am so afraid and fearful of him setting out on its own. I love how you express these emotions. And your journal pages are just lovely too. I must try and get some more of my journal pages online. I just never have the time. Love your blog Kathy. So glad to see you getting into it. It is a great outlet. Are you in touch with Jennifer?
Thanks for stopping by!!
Posted by: tina | May 16, 2008 at 08:57 AM